the road to hell was paved with good intentions

Or so I've been told.

You can have the best intentions in the world, but if you don't keep your eyes on the bigger picture, you will probably find yourself saying to your besties, "where are we going?  And why are we in this handbasket??" 

I've mostly lived my short young life as it came to me.  I've appreciated the people & situations that have graced my life as they were and had never thought that I should have any sort of expectations.  Who am I to think that I should choose what I do, where I go, and with whom I am friendly with.   I've felt lost for a long time.  I didn't even know it.  It wasn't until I started writing, reading, painting again that I really felt it.  It's sort of been an emotional battle for me the last few months that I've been working through all of this.  And I am not an emotional person.  I am not the girl that cries... except, recently I have been.  My dear friends that have been going through this with me, sometimes just by leaving me alone (thanks for your patience, PS), I cannot and do not know if I will ever be able to thank you enough.  Well, how much I've been missing out on.  It all started that day that my dear Lisa kindly reminded me who I was and pushed me back on track.

I am important.  I have worth.  And it's my life.

My first new intention is to not forget those words.  To repeat them to myself daily if need be.  Until they have become permanently ingrained in my mind.

I'm going to start with some daily intentions.  I'll work my way up from there.  Please feel free to offer advice.  I may not take it... but advice given, is always heard and appreciated.  Also, Jac has been so kind as to redecorate my banner and I'm working on updating my site.  So I guess that my first list of intentions will be as such:

Thursday (not necessarily in this order):

1 - update page with some more fun stuff

2 - Kreativ Blogger Award posting (thanks again Jac, and now Kate too)

3 - put up & decorate the Christmas tree (my last one here at home)

4 - read my new book - "The Gospel According to Coco Chanel" ( ♥ her)