Pieces of Me... July

Hello July. It's been months since I've written a post and thought about adjusting the privacy settings to just me, but I thought better of it.



And so for July...



I like...
... the sunshiney weather and clear blue skies out here in San Diego.
... That my Dad came to visit and I got to hang out with him for a whole week.
... things have fallen into place and I feel whole again.


I don't like...
... The bitter hotness on my sunkissed shoulders at the moment.
... That I'm missing a beach day tomorrow.
... That I miss my dad already... He just left 8 hours ago.


I want you to know...
... that I'm happy. And relieved to be so at long last.


I've planned...
... to make my volunteer trip at the end of this year. More details later!
... a trip back home in September, where I'll get to see practically my whole family.
... To move again soon.


I want to say to someone special...
... Nothing at all.

Tear stained pillow cases

Tear stained pillow cases and swollen eyes give me away. It kills me
to let you see me cry, but cry, I will.

It's the cold and lonely nights such as this, that I miss you. My
mom, who can make anything better instantly. And my dad, who can pull
apart the well-built walls around my heart. My sisters sweet smiles
and knowing eyes.

Those that know me best, know I'll keep you out no matter the cost.
And a high cost it seems I've paid. I'd give nearly anything just to
be hugged for an instant, and a stroke of my hair telling me that
every little thing is fine. To sleep in the comfort of a friends
embrace. A pat on the hand to reassure.

Today, I miss you.

Petite billet doux (little love notes)

Dear Africa,

I wish I could come visit. Why do you have to be so dangerous?


Dear allergies,

I'm grateful for what I've been gifted in life, but allergic to the yellow fever vaccine... Really?


Dear San Diego,

I finally feel like myself again. I have you to thank for that.


Dear Little Italy,

I like your little neighborhood. I mean, MY little neighborhood.


Dear new job,

I like that I made my own hours, my bosses appreciate me, my salary is perfect, that I basically have the run of the town, and my accounts love me already. Plus, being able to walk to work is a HUGE bonus.


Dear Mama,

I miss hanging out with you and talking forever into the night. I am so grateful that I was able to spend 4 weeks with you. I wish you were here to see my new place, but I know that when you come visit, you'll absolutely love it!


Dear Dad,

I miss you. I'm sorry that my move wasn't planned better. There's no time like the present and there's no point in waiting it out. I'm happy here, but I miss you a whole awful lot.


Dear little sister,

Sorry I couldn't explain it better or wait any longer. I hope that one day you'll understand the why's and how's of it all... And in the meantime, just know that I miss my best friend and really wish I could drive across the bridge to see you right now.


Dear Allisen,

I miss hanging out and wish, now more than ever, that I'd spent more time coming to visit. I hope you'll visit me soon.(and maybe stay?)

Dear Michelle,

I am so glad that we've come back into eachothers lives. I forgot how much I missed you and I'm so grateful to you for needing me as much as I need you right now.



Dear blog friends,

I don't have Internet yet, but I promise to update more and catch up on what I've missed as soon as I do.


xx Carrie



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a little note

Last time I wrote, I had just arrived in Las Vegas.  I had a great time, but more on that another time.  I might be away from blogger for a few more days...

I just wanted to fill you in on some big news.

After the tradeshow in Las Vegas, I drove down to San Diego with Michelle and her little family to hang out for a few days before heading back to NY.

All you really need to know (and I'll get more into it later, I'm sure...) is that after being in San Diego for a few days, I felt like I could breathe.

Literally, yes,

 but also,

 just starting in a new place where no one knows you at all.

I've decided to stay in San Diego for awhile.

I like breathing, after all.

without going too far into it, this is what I need to do for me.

for now.

for those of you that have been so understanding and supportive,

 I thank you - it means the world to me.

for those of you that I've hurt,

know that this is best for me, for now.

talk soon!

Pieces of me... March

And for March... here goes...

I like...

... that as I'm writing this.. I'm in Vegas.

... that for the next few days, I'll get to hug my niece & nephew & my sweet sister all I want
(and right now, little Celina is in my lap asleep.)

... text messages.

I don't like...

... seriously heavy snow.

... my car being damaged from the collapse of the carport, thanks to said snow.

... leaving my Dad in NY to clean up the carport mess and without power for who knows how long?

I want you to know...

... I'm most likely postponing my volunteer trip for a few months.

There have been road blocks at every turn

( I guess that means I'll have to explain it all in a post soon, huh?),

and it seems like someone just might be trying to tell me something.

Believe you, me... not in any way cancelled.. just postponed a month or two..

I'm thinking June.

I've planned...

... some fabulous ideas for trips to hold me over until June.

... a high possibility of a sisterly adventure in April.

... to get a job.

I want to say to someone special...

... hi.

a winter wonderland...

{this was actually written on Friday morning (02/26/2010) but could not be published for lack of internet}

Our snow storm started yesterday morning. We've had some snowfall so far this winter. But it's been nothing compared to those of you south of us... Virginia, DC, Jersey, North Carolina... even Georgia!

We've had winters where we've gotten this much snow.

But all at once?

Really Mother Nature?

Necessary?

I think NOT.

We thought we would be okay in all this snow.

Until the power & phone went out around 5pm Thursday.

Yep... just in time for nightfall. So, as I was multi-tasking between my Twitter, Facebook, e-mail, ebay, & etsy...

power outage.

and then the phone lines were dead.

Oh - did I mention that I live in a cabin in the middle of the deep dark wood?

When the power goes out here, it means...

no electricity (obv),

no heat,

(save for the woodstove, which we... ok Dad.. had to dig out the woodpile after all of the snow)

no water (septic tank, hello?),

no internet/cable

and spotty cell service

(we basically live in a hole where cell phone service requires you to hold your cell phone high up in the air with one hand while standing on one foot and praying for a signal as you walk from one end of the house to the other, standing by the windows and wondering if signals can travel through log walls...)

So in the midst of all of this - Dad & I get our gear on and trudge up the mile (seven tenths of a mile, to be exact)-long private road to check and see if the rest of the neighbors are in the same boat.

Yes. All of them. Same deal.

(some do have generators, but come on..)

So on our walk back home... we actually have to navigate through fallen trees on the road

(yes, they fell in the 15-20 minutes whilst chatting up the neighborhood)

So, in addition to all of the snow...

this is what I woke up to this morning...

 

 

 

"heavy duty" carport

our poor trucks...

roof rack is gone. tires are being squished... roof is a lot closer to the floor now...

(dad's is worse)

carport leaning on my poor sweet jeep.

snowblower was saved by the jeep...

dad.. fixing the snowblower..

with duct tape, a wire hanger & a spike.

(he's a ranger... what can I say?)

oh, yes... that's the carport. You can see the shed behind it...

but that has just sunk into the ground... not collapsed.

And so far... the roof has held steady.

I count my blessings that no one was hurt,

and I pray that I can make it to the airport somehow for my seven AM flight to Vegas tomorrow...

tweet tweet

so I have finally joined the bandwagon....

I joined Twitter!!

follow me - cpfeftravel

isn't that name cute? 

Thanks Jac for the help!